Fog, fog, fog, and binge eating

I am so done with this fog. Where is the sun? I want to go there. It makes me sad and cold. The photo is of our lovely foggy sky.

Yesterday, was a stay at home day watching a movie and the Cowboys (they are Mike's team). I finished knitting my second hat, well it looks like a hat. I need to practice more. AND, it was a horrible day of eating junk food. I haven't been eating a lot of snacks lately, maybe here and there, but yesterday was an all out binge. Ruffles and onion dip, popcorn slathered with butter, some Pillsbury appetizers, celery with peanut butter, and a large Pepsi (I haven't drank that much Pepsi in a whole month). Dessert was two Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. BTW the Pillsbury things were gross, but I still ate them.

The bottom line was I felt like crap the rest of the night and I could hardly get to sleep. I had the feeling I had washed up on a beach somewhere, maybe an elephant seal or whale. Where was my willpower? Can I blame this on the fog because it is dismal and depressing?

NO!!! This is all about me. I really don't even like most of that stuff anymore, just because it makes me feel like a lard ass. So, why do we eat or do things we know are bad for us? I have asked this question many times in my life, but I don't think I ever really had an answer. Should I ask Dr. Oz, Oprah, Dr. Phil, the Doctors? Someone has to know, or will at least push their opinion on me. I think I'll see what the counselor says at my next appointment. I'll keep you posted.

Luckily, today has started out better. I had my oatmeal w/walnuts, a little brown sugar, a small (really) pat of butter, and a splash of milk along with a cup of coffee (no, I didn't put the coffee in the oatmeal). I also had one piece of bacon, which is really odd because I can eat a whole pound of it. Who can't? Well, I guess you can't if you are a vegetarian or vegan. You don't know what your are missing. Pork fat rules!! I digress.

Well, I guess I will go knit or work on some jewelry so I keep my hands busy. Can't have greasy hands when you are doing crafts. The Patriots are on, my team, and from the start of the game it was bad. Oh, well I can always hope. I am making ground turkey meatloaf tonight, with a salad, and an excellent glass of wine. I plan on sleeping better tonight.

Ciao!